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"Life is way too short for bad vibes" 

It's a quote I read one day while sitting in a world religions class during my junior year of college. At the time I beginning to feel so out of touch with everything going on around me. I didn't want to be around certain people anymore. School was beginning to feel useless. I was just beginning to feel drained. I had no will power to even pretend certain things were okay anymore. There's only so much you can hide with jokes and being funny.

"Life is way too short for bad vibes"

Everyday felt like a nightmare when I would wake up. It was another day of doing things and going places that made me unhappy. Some days I couldn't get out of bed. What was the point? Nothing felt right. Nothing made me happy. Day in and day out. Place after place. Things would be the same. I'd sit in class and listen to everyone around me talk about the subject like it meant something to them. All to realize that all of it meant nothing to me. It wasn't just one class it was all of them. Seeing other people so engaged in something, and you feeling so detached is a weird feeling. You want to feel like somethings wrong with them but you really know the problem is within you..

"Life is way too short for bad vibes" 

Even writing those words now seems so strange because I'm not that person. I don't do things that make me unhappy. I never have. So why was I? Truth is there was no way around it. Some things I had no choice about. Well I had a choice but it wasn't a choice I was allowed to make. I don't even know if that made sense but I guess that was the point. None of it made sense. Trying to make sense of it would keep me up at night. Saying something about it didn't help because it got brushed off. Pretending to be happy wasn't an option. So what was left to do?

"Life is way too short for bad vibes"

I've quit jobs on a whim because I wasn't happy. I didn't need to be in a place that people treated me like shit and nothing more than a pretty face. I didn't need to be in a place that the second I walked in my chest would get tighter, and it would be hard to breath. Shit I'm too young to feel so unhappy. So I quit those places. I found other jobs and quit. Jobs come and go. If i'm going to be working the rest of my life I better be happy there. Like I mentioned I don't do pretending to be happy very well.

"Life is way too short for bad vibes" 

Those words speak so much truth into the way I live my life. If I'm not happy. If I'm not comfortable. If I am getting bad vibes. I'm out. I don't want it. I don't need it. I'm not saying I've figured out all those things that made me feel so miserable by any means. All I know is I have no time for bad vibes. No one should. 


-Brittany

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